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| Monday May. 12th, 2008 at 9:55am |
| still dying here |
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| The Brainwasher - Daft Punk |
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So much for showing off my new shirt at school today. But I don't think it would have been the best idea to go to school when I could barely walk without losing my balance. Because of all the shit going on in my sinuses their's stuff in my ears, and I think it's messing with my inner ear. A.k.a., I have to stumble around, keep my hand on a wall/railing and tilt my head to the side in order to not fall over and break my neck.
My mom thinks I have the flu.
I think God is trying to tell me I should just give up now.
I can't even go back to sleep. I tried, and then I started coughing. And coughing. I wanted to rip my throat out. I was like, STFU LUNGS I'M TRYING TO SLEEP HERE.
And I still feel like my brain is moving in slow motion. It's like, someone will say/do something and then there's a slight delay until I respond. If I was in the wild, I would have been dead since Friday. Lol.
My body is starting to creep me out. My temperature has been slowly getting lower and lower over the course of the weekend. When my mom told me to take my temperature this morning it was like 95.7. And three days ago it was 100.3. Wtf?
Maybe that's why my brain is so sluggish; because my body temperature is too low...? I feel like a half frozen lizard on 'shrooms or something....
And, it doesn't help that I didn't sleep very well last night.
GEEZ, THE WORLD WANTS ME TO DIE, I SWEAR IT DOES.
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| Sunday May. 11th, 2008 at 8:35pm |
| My dreams are on 'shroomies.........?!? |
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| Beast Wars opening theme bouncing around my head.... |
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I took a nap and I feel better now. Not quite so wonky anymore.
I can't say that for the dreams I had, though.
I had this one dream thing where I couldn't get the blinds to close on my window. It was broken or something, and after a while I just gave up and that dream ended. Yeah, I know that was the lamest dream ever conceived by man.
Then I had this other one... I had this sheet which had my final grades for the year on it. I don't remember the grades I got for each class, but for French I had a C, math I totally bombed, and then in English I had like an A+. And then, for reasons unknown to me, I was graded on my performance in Tongue and Cheek and I actually did pretty well; I got a B, even though a) I was never graded for that performance, and b) I've never taken a theatre class in my entire life and wouldn't want to either.
Then the view switched from just reading this sheet to sitting in this sort of park thing, I don't remember it clearly, but there was a statute in a fountain in the middle of it, and I was sitting cross legged near it under the shade of some trees or something. I didn't think anything odd of it in my dream, but I was sitting with a bunch of Predacons from the Beast Wars continuity. Megatron was to my left slightly behind my shoulder, Inferno was next to me on my right, and Waspinator and Terrorsaur were goofing off with each other right in front of me. We were sort of in this little circle thing, and we were just talking about random stuff. The only thing I remember of the conversation was that we were making fun of how badly the live-action TF movie Bumblebee drove. It doesn't make any sense to me either, but in my dream all of us were getting quite a kick out of the whole thing. I managed to make Megatron grin at one of my jokes too. I think I had said that 'every time he went around a corner, a part of me was saying, do not want.'
And then my mom woke me up for dinner. Lol.
I wish my life was more like that. I mean, who wouldn't want to be best buds with Megatron and his Predacon gang? Sigh......
To change the subject abruptly... My brother Ned gave me his birthday present to me. It's a totally awesome Transformers T-shirt. It has Optimus Prime, Jazz, Prowl, Bumblebee, and Hot Rod on it against a sort of fiery backdrop with shiny gold. It's hard to explain exactly what it looks like, but oh well. I'll be wearing it tomorrow, so you can just see it then. :P
Even though Beast Wars has really grown on me, and I really like it, I'd still have to say that G1 is my favorite. I guess that makes me one of those snotty G1 purists, eh? Oh well... At least I don't go around TF communities and TF YouTube videos posting that G1 is the best and that every other TF thing after G1 sucks..... God, those sorts of people are obnoxious. Whenever I come across someone like that it's just, geez, man, chill out. Go back to watching your G1 cartoons and playing with your G1 toys and leave the rest of us alone. Lol.
I've probably said this before, but... I love Transformers. Transformers are awesome. I wish my car/computer/iPod/every gadget I owned was a Transformer. Le sigh......
And on a final note... I'm terrified about exams. I know I'm going to bomb my Math exam, and the future looks bleak for my French exam....
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| Saturday May. 10th, 2008 at 3:55pm |
| I hate being sick..... |
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I feel horrible. I haven't gotten this sick in years. I practically have to overdose on Claritin just in order to be able to sniffle. No matter how much I fucking blow my nose, more comes out. Urgh. Last night I had a temperature of 100.3. Unless my memory has failed me as usual, I've never had a temperature in my entire life.
And on top of all this, Aunt Flo came a'knockin'. Shoot me please.
I know nobody likes to be sick, but I think I'm actually on the extreme end. I absolutely positively hate being sick. It's not really the symptoms that bother me, it's the stir craziness from not being able to do anything fun that gets to me. If I don't get out and do something once in a while, I go insane. Literally. I just hate how being sick makes me feel awful, and then I can't do anything because I feel awful, and that just drives me up a wall.
So being around me while I'm sick is weird if you don't know me very well, because I'll be all hyper even though I'm blowing my nose or barfing every five minutes. Lol, that just gave me a funny mental image....
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| Thursday May. 8th, 2008 at 9:06pm |
| OH-EM-GEE |
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| Megashira - Anujunabeats |
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I did it. I survived opening night of Tongue and Cheek, the play I'm in. Now I just have to do it one last time, and then I'm DONE.
Thank the Lord.
And then I can really get serious about freaking out over exams. YAY!
I'm going to fail my math exam. I'm trying to be over dramatic, either. I got the review sheet today in class, and I don't know how to to do anything. Well, ok, except for like 3 problems. But yeah. I'm going to die. At least I'll have made it to 16.
Now the only thing I have to say is....
"This gullible vagabond wouldn't recognize an honest conjecture if it was tattooed to his neanderthal cranium!" - Jefferey Hopney, the character I play. I'm gonna miss that guy, even though he's an asswipe.
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I'm now officially 16. So there. You're so jealous. And I have an English paper that's due tomorrow morning that I should be working on instead of posting this. But oh well... It's my birthday.
This was a most interesting birthday. I dissected a fish in Bio and almost got formaldahide(sp?) squirted in my face , and I finally learned how to put on eyeliner. I used to hate eyeliner, since someone else had to put it on me and I'm really bad about people sticking pencils close to my eyeballs. But now I actually kind of like it. It makes me feel more like a hip sixteen-year-old, hehe.
I really want to wear this mini-skirt that my friend gave me, but it's too short for dress code. Sigh...
I'll at least show off my new eyeliner-ed look tomorrow. It makes me feel prrreeetttyyy.......
I must say though, even though my birthday wasn't the most amazing one in my entire life, I still got some awesome presents. I got Soundwave and Optimus Prime action figures, a bunch of miscellaneous Transformers comics, and the comic Megatron: Origin is on its way. I'm sooo excited to get M: O, you have no idea. I'll sit in the back of class and drool over the pictures of Megatron. Lol, just kidding. I don't drool over guys; I merely admire. I'd feel bad staring at a good looking guy, since they probably get it all the time.
This is probably a random question, but sometimes I wonder what guys think of me. I mean, some girls get asked out all the time, but I've never been asked out. Huh. I wonder if it's because I don't get all freaked out/psycho/girly/whatever-girls-do when I'm around guys. I make friends really easily with guys, better than with girls, actually. Oh well... maybe I'll figure it out when I go to a co-ed. college.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!
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Here are a bunch of shitty pictures I took on a mini-photo shoot of Soundwave.
WOOT. I changed my journal layout thing-a-ma-bob! Isn't it obnoxious?! Yeah, I know it is. DEAL WITH IT, CAUSE I LIKE IT.
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| Sunday Apr. 20th, 2008 at 7:41pm |
| Psh, dead people? Nah, I see Death... |
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| Age of Shadows/We Are Forever - Ayreon |
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I went over to a certain friend's house today, and we watched this cool movie called Hogfather. It's one of those movies that was adapted from a book, this one being Hogfather (omg noway!) by Terry Pratchet. I just want to say.... I'm sorry, but Death was so cute!
That sounds so weird, even for me.
I've always liked Pratchet's Death character. He's absolutely hilarious in the books. HE SPEAKS IN ALL CAPITALS and gets to wear a Santa- er, Hogfather costume, complete with fake beard. OUR DEATH DOESN'T DO THAT, gosh. It's hard to describe without sounding all pervy/necropheliac (sp?), but, despite contrary belief, Death is one sweet guy. Or, er, skeleton. I was watching the movie and several times I was like, can I PLEASE hug you?!
On a totally different note...
I. HATE. ABC DAYS. SHOOT ME PLZ kthanxbye.
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| Saturday Apr. 19th, 2008 at 3:31pm |
| The Misadventures of Captain Weasel (#1) |
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Ok, so, I got back from riding, went up to the bathroom, and started to blow my nose, minding my whole business, right? I like, pulled the tissue away and was finishing up when BOOM all this friggin' blood started pouring out. I was like, WTF, I didn't know blowing your nose was a violent activity that would give you a nose bleed!!?
You're probably like, wow, I did not need to know that. Well, for your information, this is the first nose bleed I've ever gotten in my entire life. SO THERE. Ooh, buuuuurrrrrrnnn.
And yes, this was the most random, retarded thing I've ever posted on LJ.
Um, on a different note... I'm going to the Cherry Blossom Festival in D.C. tomorrow! I'm pretty excited; it should be so much fun. I hope the weather stays nice. Plus, I'll be able to show off one pf my new Transformers T-shirts, hehehe....
ONLY A MONTH UNTIL SUMMER YIPEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I am officially a fan of Beast Wars. I love that show, even though I'm only up to episode 11. DINOBOT IS AWESOME. Cheetor and Terrorsaur are pretty cool as well, along with Optimus Primal (Optimus is kinda a given though, haha).
Oh, and while I'm on the subject of Transformers... TF: Animated is kickass. The TF:A Megatron is WICKED AWESOME. And, in the most recent episode (The Elite Guard) they introduced Jazz... I think I'm in love obsessed. TF:A JAZZ IS SOOOOO COOOOOOOL. He's the coolest, hippest, chill-est person/Transformer EVER. He's awesome.
Even though there are still some things about TF:A that occasionally bug me, I like it so far. The plot is interesting enough for me to want to know what the hell is gonna happen next, although it may not be the as original as it first appeared. The Allspark shatters into pieces all over the place, and I'm guessing the Autobots and Decepticons will enter in this whole 'race against time' cliche thing to collect all the pieces before the other side does... That sounds way too much like the manga InuYasha for comfort.
Not that you needed to know, but... I went to Hot Topic today and got 3 Transformers T-shirts. That made me all happy inside. And a couple of days ago I got 2 Transformers comic books. They made me all happy inside. Transformers in general make me happy inside...
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I WISH MY CAR WAS A TRANSFORMER. I HATE YOU SAM WITWICKY.
Seriously, as soon as I get my first car I'm gonna put either a huge Autobot or Decepticon insignia on the hood. I haven't decided which yet...
I AM SO COOL. YOU'RE JUST JEALOUS.
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| Sunday Apr. 13th, 2008 at 10:19pm |
| Music makes my brain asplode........? |
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| Live for Tomorrow - Moby |
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I'm plugged in to my iPod way too much. I'm like, addicted to music. Oh well, it could be worse.
And that was totally random.
I was gonna write something , but I completely forgot what it was. Er................
Ah, wait, I remember now.
Do you ever have those moments when you walk into a room, and have to just stop walking and stare because you're like, holy crap, I wish things were different? That probably didn't make any sense except to me. But anyways, that happened to me yesterday.
I walked into my room, in some sort of half day-dreamy state, half expecting someone to be in there waiting to sweep me off to some far away adventure (I really have no idea why I was convinced of this), and BOOM. Nothing. Absolutely nobody. I felt so disappointed. No, seriously. I was opening the door, and all of a sudden I knew that Soundwave (shut it) was going to be in my room, waiting for me all menacing-like, but WHABAM, there was nobody. I had to just sit on my bed and mope for a good minute or two.
I guess I'm just a freak, but I wish, so badly, that these characters were real. I'd do almost anything to meet them/have them be real, somewhere, somehow. I mean, ARGH, they're so freaking cool, it's not fair that they're not real! I mean, yeah, of course I do appreciate what this world has to offer, but sometimes I think a thorough shaking-up of reality would do the world some good. This day and age is just so... boring. Hardly anything amazingly new is discovered anymore. Hardly anyone thinks outside the box. People in general are just brainwashed idiots who don't know how to think for themselves.
I wish people would just wake up and open their eyes, to everything. No one stops to enjoy anything anymore, they're too intent on discovering all of the universe's secrets and becoming all-knowing and all-powerful. I mean, jeez, if you ask me, the secret to everything is to just stop and smell the roses. Who cares about what happens if you're sucked into a black hole. If you can't enjoy the here and now, and what nature has to offer, and the power of imagination, then there's no way you can ever enjoy the supposed secret of life, the universe, and everything. If you ask me, curiosity did kill the cat... excruciatingly painfully. I mean, look at us now. The world is being destroyed in front of our very eyes through global warming because our curiosity invented cars and gasoline and all that shit. And people are too stupid to stop trying to find the secret of everything and concentrate on finding a way to save ourselves and our world. Half the population doesn't even believe global warming exists, and thinks that it's a giant conspiracy, and is convinced that there are at least 10 Eiffel Towers. What the fuck?!
Uh... wow, I got really off topic. Here is a prime example of how my mind works. One thing leads to another, and another, and another...
...Have you ever realized how beautiful music can be? I mean, really noticed how beautiful it can be? I wish life was as beautifully simple as music...
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For just about the first time ever, I wish I had cable TV.
There's this new Transformers Animated, and I really want to see it. The episodes that have aired so far are up on YouTube, but it's not quite the same as watching the episodes on the TV. And, I have to wait longer to see the episodes on YouTube, since it takes time to edit and post videos.
THE SERIES JUST GOT TO A GOOD PART TOO AND I HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL AT LEAST SUNDAY TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS NEXT. And that's only if someone posts it on YouTube right after the episode just aired. GRAWR. Stupid Cartoon Network for being only on cable...
Transformers Animated is a kid's show. So what?! I like it. G1 Transformers is still awesome, and always will be, but TA is coolness. I'm not particularly partial to the animation style (I just don't think it works for Transformers; too stylized and curvy/human-like for alien robots), but the characters are fairly fresh and interesting.
Unfortunately, it seems (to me at least) that the people making TA were overly worried about whether the Decepticons would still be the evil bad-asses that everyone remembered, and didn't put as much effort into the Autobots. I dunno, the Autobots are still cool, it's just... they seem too much like the happy-happy-yay-yay bumbling heroes that are in just about every other show these days. I like them, heck yes (especially Prowl, he's awesome), but... I just don't feel the whole Autobot vibe with them like I did with the G1 Autobots. I don't like how they seem too much like wannabe's; G1 Autobots were never like that, they were serious about their goal and serious when it came to protecting the innocent. And they were far from bumbling, either. The TA Autobot characters just aren't as... original and inspiring as the G1 Autobots were.
I'm an Autobot at heart, but... the TA Starscream and Megatron KICK ASS. They are FREAKING AWESOME. The TA Decepticons are FREAKNG AWESOME in general. Blitzwing is just hilarious. I love him, he's great. Starscream is awesome, as always. They captured his G1 character perfectly; I wouldn't change anything about him in TA. He's still the whiny, backstabbing, sexy Starscream everyone knew and loved from G1. And Megatron... I don't even know where to start. He's just kick ass, man. He's still the wonderfully diabolical Megatron everyone loved from G1, only, somehow, even better. I don't know how they did it; they did an amazing job with Megatron's character. The voice they got for him was just, perfect. He's just so, bad, it's great. And boy, he's one smooth talker, hehe. I don't even know how to describe it... The TA Megatron is just so evil. You don't get very many good villains like that with TV shows these days. Megatron is just so bad ass, I can't help but love him.
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| Sunday Mar. 23rd, 2008 at 7:32pm |
| Spazzy Spazz Spazz... GAH SPAZZZZZ |
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| Rollin' & Scratchin' - Daft Punk |
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LOL I have no idea how but my icon is strangely appropriate... LOL I'M SUCH A FREEEEEEAAAKKK.
You know that feeling when you have free time, and all of a sudden you're swamped by things you want to do? It's all like, OMG, I want to do that! But, wait... I WANNA DO THAT TOO OMG. AND THAT. AND THAT AND THAT AND THAT.... OMF-- shit, where do I start?
Does that make any sense?
I'm like, freaking out here. I have, uh *counts on fingers* 4 stories I want to finish. And I mean, I really want to finish them. All of them. Each and every one of them. But I keep on getting sidetracked, and then another idea will come out of the blue that I want to add to one of the other stories, and, and... GUH. My mind is a huge messed-up jumble of ideas, and if I could I'd work on all 4 of the stories at the same time. But I can't, since I don't really work that way, and I can't type fast enough to keep up with my thoughts... and I keep getting distracted way too easily.
On top of all of this, I have to work on memorizing the lines for the play I'm in. I have to have them all memorized by the end of this week (a.k.a. Spring Break), since I'm supposed to be "off the book" by the time I get back to rehearsals. I'm not overly worried about it, since I know I can get it done, it's just I really, really really really want to work on those stories, and make some decent headway on them, and maybe finish one or two of them.
ARGH I don't know what to do, because I HAVE to get those lines memorized because I don't want to let the director down, who happens to be one of my best friends (not the best of combinations, but it'll make things easier for me because this is only the second play I've ever done in my life), and at the same time I REALLY FRIGGIN' WANT TO FINISH THOSE STORIES.
I'm not saying that being a writer isn't a lot of fun, and writing isn't the thing I love doing most, but... If you have a choice between being born an easily inspired writer and a lawyer, choose the lawyer. Seriously, it's so much easier, and healthier, and people won't think you're a freak when you grab the nearest stack of napkins and start scribbling down a novel...
(Haha, I always poke fun at me being a writer. It's kind of a love-hate relationship. I love it, but it always leaves me a flustered, spaced-out mess when I have like 4 stories running around in my head demanding to be written. XP Don't get me wrong, I adore writing, but it's kinda like the not house trained puppy that you can't help but love, and can never stay angry at. If that makes any sense at all...)
If a psychiatrist ever got inside my head and really studied me, he would so tell me I'm insane after like, 20 minutes of watching my thought processes and seeing how I think. XD
Good lord I'm hyper... I hope the Aderol(sp?) I finally broke down and took kicks in soon...
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| Sunday Mar. 23rd, 2008 at 12:18am |
| Musics and iPods and Weasel's Gone Wild, Oh My! |
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| Transformers Theme - Mute Math |
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Um, ignore the title. I tried to be witty but failed. Yeah... If you read my previous post you'll get the whole Weasel thing.
Uh, anyways...
I tried to participate in the LJ Content Strike, but kinda failed since I only found out about it an hour after it had started, and I had already posted something. Oh well... I avoided posting anything else after that, at least.
As for what the really stupid title is all about... I got a new iPod! My old one's battery was really starting to fail, and I didn't want to pay $50 to get the battery replaced when it was already outdated. It's a red nano, and I love it! It's so small and, well, cute, if an iPod can be considered cute, haha. What's even better about it, is that it's the (Product)Red Special Edition version of the nano. When you buy one of those, up to 50% of the money is given to a fund that's working to help the HIV/AIDS victims in Africa. So, besides getting a sweet iPod, part of the money you paid for it saves lives. I don't know about you, but that sure makes me feel good. :)
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| Wednesday Mar. 19th, 2008 at 2:50pm |
| It's Raining |
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Have you ever opened the window when it was raining, and just listened? Watched? Smelled?
Most people don't like it when it rains. They say there's nothing to do. It's dreary and depressing. What they're really admitting is that they don't know how to appreciate everything that life gives them, even if it is something bad, or something unwanted.
If you ask me, I think it is lovely when it rains.
It is Nature's way of giving life.
The clouds are dreary, the sun isn't shining, it is chilly and wet. But all of that doesn't matter; it won't last. What really matters is the earth itself. People are so preoccupied with the sky and the sun, they forget how green the grass is, how dark the tree branches are against the sky. They forget how soothing the droplets of rain are, washing away time for a while, slowing hectic life so all can take a moment to relax and collect themselves. People forget that they were brought into the world much the same way, if you think about it a little; most see birth as violent and painful, ugly and unpleasant, and they cannot see nor appreciate the beautiful miracle of it all.
Perhaps if it was not quite so cold, and I wasn't already ill, I would be outside, soaking up the rain with the rest of my leafy brethren.
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Ok, I'm really bored, so I'll probably be posting a lot of random stuff over the course of my Spring Break....
Anyways, I was watching an episode of Transformers on YouTube (I'm making my way through all of them, hehehe), and I saw this and was like, SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEFEST.
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Soundwave laughs!!! It's the cutest thing ever (shut up), even though it's creepy as hell (LOL I'm such a friggin' dork). I had to watch it fifty more times a second time and I couldn't stop giggling. I mean, yeah, it's funny if Starscream basically shoots himself, but it must be pee-your-pants funny for Soundwave to laugh at it.
It's at 5:20, if you don't want to watch the whole thing. The volume is a little wonky, so you might have to turn up your volume a lot. And, also, Soundwave's laugh is a little hard to pick out, unless you're familiar with his voice.
And I'm getting way too excited/fangirl/ftw over 5 seconds of laughter........
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