I think I'm in love, again. Just, GAH, why do I always fall for fictional characters?! And yeah, I'm being serious here. I mean, you have to feel at least something towards someone if you stay awake until 1 in the morning thinking about them.
I don't know what it is about villains that I'm attracted to. More than half the time my favorite character in a story/movie winds up being the villain. And now, in more recent times, it's not that I just like a character, it's I have a crush on them. And I feel kind of weird about it, since they're not even real. And they're (usually) a bad guy that everyone else hates. So yeah. God I'm a freak.

You're probably wondering who the fuck I'm supposedly in love with, so I'll tell you.

No, it's not Soundwave, but I still think he's beyond awesome.

Ugh. I feel like such a freak saying this. No, scratch that. It's just hard for me to admit who it is. Deep breath...

Ok.

It's Megatron. Go ahead and laugh, but that won't change anything. I love him, I reallydo. Unless somehow I'm overreacting, which I don't think I am, because every time he's mentioned I get little twittering butterflies in my stomach and I feel all warm and blissful all over.

It's kind of funny, though, because this just started. Like, last night. I randomly looked up Megatron on DeviantART, and after browsing for a little while I found this really intriguing drawing of him without his trademark helmet on. He was younger, and just... something about his face and expression was -- I don't really know the right words for it -- just, so beautiful. He had this sort of crest, though it was more like a crown with four, er, prongs(?!). And then he had these sort of tribal markings in crimson, under his eyes starting out wide and then tapering to points, and on the part that covers his brow on his helmet (when he's wearing it). Eventually I figured out where these designs came from, and it's a comic (that I REALLY want for my birthday) called Megatron: Origin. So I typed that in and found these samples of what was in the comic (though it was only the pictures and no lines) and, well, the rest is history.
I don't even know what happens in the comic. I don't even know what this younger version of Megatron is like. And yet I've fallen fast and hard for him. Damn my imagination. You see, what little I've gleaned from comments on the sample pages points towards how Megatron, before the Great War, was a gladiator. For me, that's like, the beginnings of major romantics. I'm a very romantic person; I just don't show it publicly. And, it doesn't help that (in my book, at least) this younger Megatron is quite handsome. Borderline beautiful, if you want the truth.
I don't know, it's just... Megatron: Origin hints towards tragedy. I might be totally jumping to conclusions, but I get the feeling something happened to make Megatron the way he is in G1, and other continuities. And I just think that's so tragic.

And I'm jumping all over the place, but... I can't get over what a handsome face this younger Megatron has. It's instantly recognizable as Megatron, only... softer, more sensual, and somehow innocent. It's the type of face you glimpse in a crowd, who's impression never leaves you even though you don't know the person, and as you continue on your way you hear your heart wishing them the best of luck in life, and hoping for them to never lose their innocence. It's hard to explain, but all I can say is that Megatron is beautiful in his own, wonderfully unique way, and that I love him.

The pages are out of order, but......





It's kind of hard to understand what's happening unless you have an idea of what's going on (I sort of do, but I don't know if it's right so I'm keeping my mouth shut), but just... his face and expressions are so beautiful, yet so fragile and tragic. He looks as if he could shatter. I don't know how else to describe it... But I wish I was there, to hold his hand and just be someone who cares and someone he can come to when he feels fragile. It hurts to see someone so strong look like they are breaking inside...