date: Tuesday Apr. 29th, 2008 at 7:53pm subject: School is the Work of the Friggin' DEVIL, ARGH. security grid strength: Public status: furious music: Kernkraft 400 - Zombie Nation tags: rant

I HATE SCHOOL ARRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHH!! I just want people to LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE and let me get on with my writing. I'm sick and tired of mofo's breathing down my neck all the time and telling me what to do every second of my life. I WANT TO CONTROL MY OWN LIFE NOW, THANKS.
I'm turning 16 in like, a week, and I'm still playing with the idea of dropping out of school. I don't care what anyone says, school does absolutely NOTHING for me, and I'm not getting ANYTHING out of it. I'm sick of it. I'm tired of all the fucking pressure on me to succeed and get good grades. No one ever considers the fact that maybe I don't want to succeed anymore. I've already proven to myself that I can get First Honors, and that's good enough for me. But now that everyone has seen that I can get straight A's, they expect the world from me, and I CAN'T GIVE IT TO THEM, AND THEY SHOULD KNOW THAT. GOD.
I've been struggling to 'succeed' for 10 motherfucking years now, and I don't want to do it anymore. I know what I'm good at, and I know what I'm bad at, and that should be enough. If the world doesn't like what I happen to be good at, then SCREW IT WITH A POWER TOOL. It's its own fucking loss.

I just want to get out and start living my life. I'm tired of wasting my time slaving over stupid schoolwork and learning things that I'll NEVER EVEN NEED. I DON'T NEED FUCKING CALCULUS TO WRITE STORIES, SO STOP TELLING ME I NEED TO LEARN IT.

I can't even see myself going to school next year. My advisor/dearest mentor won't be there, one of my best friends won't be there... I just can't see it. At least, I can't see myself enjoying anything. All I see is me being a miserable wretch, and I've had my fair share of wretchedness and I don't want anymore, thank you very much.
The only way I can see myself still in school is if I went to a new school next year, but it's way too late for that. (If you're wondering, I'd either go back to Jemicy or Waldorf.)

At this point, I'm just so fucking done with school...

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